Recipes-Titties-Abandoned Puppies

On Monday 

I awake at dawn 

Immediately administering my first injection of dopamine 

Directed by my mentions 

Gauging my self worth by the amount of attention 

Later that day – I feel worthless 

 

On Tuesday 

The highlighted picture on my search page is a charred car and hospital blown into pieces 

It seeps into the subconscious of my psyche 

I meet with my therapist at 3pm and she says I seem subdued.. 

 

On Wednesday

The newest video of these hidden Trump rallies appear where I come to learn that millions of people still believe he is president 

I’m perplexed 

 

On Thursday 

I learn that black dudes are still falling for the Kardashian’s and that Will Smith is apologizing for the third time 

 

On Friday 

I get lost in a thread about black men and vulnerability

It was actually insightful 

 

On Saturday 

I have to upload instagram because I deleted after I caught myself lusting- according to my activity my daily average is 6 minutes but now when I visit they’ve curated me for Recipes, Titties, and Abandoned puppies 

 

On Sunday 

I cut the shit off but I’m not off – the phantom phone still vibrates in the pocket on my thigh

The anticipation makes me hypervigilant

I got the best sleep I’ve had all week..

 

On Monday 

I mindlessly repeat the cycle