Recipes-Titties-Abandoned Puppies

On Monday
I awake at dawn
Immediately administering my first injection of dopamine
Directed by my mentions
Gauging my self worth by the amount of attention
Later that day – I feel worthless
On Tuesday
The highlighted picture on my search page is a charred car and hospital blown into pieces
It seeps into the subconscious of my psyche
I meet with my therapist at 3pm and she says I seem subdued..
On Wednesday
The newest video of these hidden Trump rallies appear where I come to learn that millions of people still believe he is president
I’m perplexed
On Thursday
I learn that black dudes are still falling for the Kardashian’s and that Will Smith is apologizing for the third time
On Friday
I get lost in a thread about black men and vulnerability
It was actually insightful
On Saturday
I have to upload instagram because I deleted after I caught myself lusting- according to my activity my daily average is 6 minutes but now when I visit they’ve curated me for Recipes, Titties, and Abandoned puppies
On Sunday
I cut the shit off but I’m not off – the phantom phone still vibrates in the pocket on my thigh
The anticipation makes me hypervigilant
I got the best sleep I’ve had all week..
On Monday
I mindlessly repeat the cycle